i wonder, whether after all these years of procrastination disguised (thinly) as planning or finding inspiration, i will eventually burst out with something magnificently creative, or just never do anything for all eternity. four years ago, when i started to hide out here in the pineaway, i was thinking about taking up bookbinding again. it hasn't happened. nor have i painted anything. needless to say, i haven't touched the sewing machine.
after a long while, i did bake a banana bread today, which turned out flat as they always do, and a blueberry pie. i wanted to get rid of the last crumbs of gluten hiding in the cupboard. my body doesn't tolerate grains, and it seems like no amount of rebelling against this fact is going to change it. corn seems to be problematic as well, which is adding insult to injury when corn tortillas are my go-to pizza crust substitute and pop corn my only true forté in the kitchen.
for some reason i have felt an aversion to raw nuts as well lately, so i tried to work around that by making some roasted nut and hemp seed butter with cinnamon, honey and lucuma. it's gorgeous, but also just begs to be spread on toast which, alas, i can't have...
the recipe is roughly as follows:
2 parts chopped up nuts and peeled hemp seed, lightly roasted on a dry pan
1 1/4 parts water
3/4 parts coconut oil or any mild flavoured cooking oil
a dash of lucuma powder
a pinch of salt
honey and cinnamon to taste
whirl it all up in a blender and let set a bit.
(i toyed with the idea of adding cocoa powder to half of the mix and marbling it up in a jar but maybe next time...)
