i don't know if it was the super intense full moon last night or what, but yesterday was one long anxiety attack for me. my heart was pounding and i couldn't do anything but lay in bed, watching ace of cakes and dog whisperer episodes online. i was so tired i could hardly keep my eyes open, yet i stayed awake into the wee hours.
in my dreams the snow had all melted from the yard overnight. in reality only some of the ice on the front steps did. the eaves are dripping though. i tried to push some of the new snow from the driveway but it's just too heavy for me. besides, there's nowhere to push it to, the banks are so high. i bet it won't all be gone even by may.
snow shoes would have come handy today, treading in tigh-high wet snow, falling deep on each step. i wanted to gather pussy willow to make a wreath from, but gave up. i cut some branches from the nearest willow to mix with the cherry blossoms in a jar. they go together well, both so delicate but different textures.
came across one early to rise mosquito on the snow, so torpid that i picked him up and placed on top of a branch of the apple tree in the sun. mosquitos are among the few fauna on this earth that i hate with a vengeance, but i still feel for the underdog.
